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For me, writing never comes easy. I have to really sit myself down, sometimes with a bottle of wine, and let myself feel. I always talk about how feeling emotions is the best way to heal but we all know we don’t always practice what we preach. I sit here today, two years after theContinue reading “The Trouble With Options”

A little over a year ago I started blogging my journey through what felt like the longest year of my life. Although it was full of pain that didn’t make much sense at the time, it brought me to a completely different place in my journey.  As I started to write that year after myContinue reading “Another Year, Another Lesson”

I am the type of person that is always thinking about 15 steps ahead of themselves. It’s a gift and a curse. Maybe it’s an effort to be “prepared” but I never actually feel prepared when the time comes. Why do I do this? I never actually realized that I was doing it until IContinue reading “Mind Over Matter”

It has been so long since I have posted. It is frustrating that I still have had such a fear of acceptance and approval over sharing MY personal journey.  The amount of amazing messages and comments I have received from this blog have meant more to me than I can put into words, but theContinue reading “It’s OK to not be OK”

I have another sleepless night. Having cancer has completely consumed me. Its even consuming my dreams. I literally can not escape it. Most days are spent at the hospital seeing doctor after doctor. When I am not at the hospital I am home with mental torment about what treatment plan is going to give meContinue reading “Keeping it “Together””

Getting diagnosed with breast cancer at age 30 made me think I definitely had a genetic predisposition to this happening. Why else would this be happening? Every time I tell someone they ask me if I am BRCA positive. I had no idea the amount of genes that could contribute to making you sick,  andContinue reading “Do Genetics Play a Part?”

It’s been a while since I have written. I have gone back and forth about doing this blog at all. Sometimes it hurts so much to dig into my past and feel all of those painful feelings and feelings of terror all over again. Every time I choose to stop, something happens that puts me backContinue reading “The Process of Falling Apart”

I woke up on this Thursday sick to my stomach. I had a full day of doctors starting with the first plastic surgeon I would see. It would be the first appointment where my bf could not make it so the day started off feeling a little incomplete. It was a cold, windy day soContinue reading “Information Overload”

My parents came to town the night before an extremely long day of doctors appointments. I would see my first plastic surgeon in the morning and then head down to a new surgical oncologist, then see a genetic oncologist counselor for a rather long science experiment sounding appointment.  Following along with our new tradition, myContinue reading “I’m Not Fine”

It had been a week since that dreaded diagnosis call. A week where my entire life had been completely thrown upside down an thrown in a total whirlwind. It felt like a year had gone by. I couldn’t remember life pre C. When I was diagnosed, my work graciously told me to take as muchContinue reading “A Lot Can Happen In A Week”